Mistress Jen wanted me to start writing some of my thoughts to share on her blog.
This morning, while lying in bed with a raging hard-on, while lying next to my beautiful Mistress, I had a sudden epiphany. You see, I am unable to touch my cock and Jen was sleeping in skimpy panties right next to me. Actually, lying on her side and I had a clear view of her ass. I wanted to do so much. I wanted to stroke myself. I wanted to bury my face in that ass and wake her with an awesome orgasm, but I could not. All I could do is stare and wish.
Let me go back a few days. On Friday, I was at the gym working out, and I received a text from Mistress to come home now and please her. I ran out of the gym because I never know when might be the day that she lets me cum. When I got home, she had me strip and get into bed. I licked her vagina until she had a HUGE orgasm. I was very happy for her. She rolled over and laid down next to me and started stroking my cock. As she was doing this, she was whispering in my ear. She told me that when she is done, she wants me to go back to the gym and finish my workout. She wants me to look at all the other men and think about how they are so free to use their cocks whenever they want.
Many of them masturbated already today, some multiple times. Some of them got to put their dicks in their wives and came when THEY were selfishly finished. NOT YOU, she said! You are an OWNED BITCH. You are not allowed to have your small dick inside me. You are MINE! You CAN’T cum when you want because I control it AND you.
You are lucky to have such a caring Mistress. This kind of talk continued for some time. She would leave the room and do things in other rooms, then come back in and stroke and suck until I was close to cumming again and stop……….I didn’t get to cum and went back to the gym and thought about what she said as I worked out.
So now, I’m back to this morning in bed. I CAN’T just wake her up and fuck her at my own leisure. I CANT just stroke my cock till I rid myself of this urge and hard on. Over the years of being a submissive and a slave I have heard the saying “this is good for you”. I just never really thought about it. Today….I know, I must be a slow learner, it hit me. My Mistress has taught me self control, orgasm control, and discipline. Those other men…have none. I am stronger for what I go through daily. My work ethic, my will to please the Woman I live with. My abilities as a lover. I feel like a well-oiled machine. It brought a smile to my face thinking about it. As I lay there thinking all this over, Mistress woke up. We said good morning, and she reached over to touch my morning wood as she always does.
“Get on the floor by the bed and lick my feet clean before I get up”. What a way to start the day….kissing, sucking and cleaning her feet. My cock is bouncing and throbbing, but I don’t DARE touch it. After both feet were done to her satisfaction, she told me to get up and make her tea, which I am happy to do.
I am so lucky to live this lifestyle and have a Woman in my life who cares about it as much as I do.
Thank you Domina for giving me that gift and teaching me to be a better man.