This morning, I wanted to share with Mistress what I was feeling, as far as being locked up and denied orgasm on a long-term basis. First, I want to say that I am happy and would not wish to live any other way. Being locked, 24/7, feeds a primal need for me. It soothes me, it calms me, it makes me feel loved. I have never understood my need to submit or to be dominated. All I know is ..It’s there, and Mistress fulfills that need, 110%.
Mistress and I have experimented with many different chastity devices, for varying lengths of time over the years and have finally settled in with the Mature Metal, Jailbird. It’s made to exact measurements and Mistress loves the way it looks on me…which is a plus. I am not big on counting the days of confinement, all I know is that I’ve been wearing it 24/7 for about a month now. Mistress has not even taken it off to play with my cock.
I’m not gonna lie here, work has been the hardest obstacle for me. People who know me, know what I do for a living so being locked in a chastity device can be quite uncomfortable while doing my job, at times. However, there is a stronger force at work here….my brain. Being locked makes me feel as though Mistress is with me always. Being locked makes me hyper aware of ANYTHING that could be overtly sexual. The slightest thought that creeps into my mind causes me to attempt to harden in the device. I LOVE the agony of it. The longer I wear it, the more I want to please Mistress. That turns her on and when she is excited, she becomes very creative with what she does to me and THAT in turn makes me desire her even more.
When she has finished using me, and has had as many orgasms as she needs, she will tell me to clean up, and goes about her day. I have to lay there for about 10 minutes just to collect myself. My emotions run wild through this process. I know, while being used, I will not have an orgasm. The fear of having an accident helps prevent that. Being locked keeps me focused, being locked fulfill my need to be constantly used. As I’m writing this, I can feel the pressure on my balls caused by the ring and cage. It is not comfortable by any means but the positives far out weigh the negative.
It pleases me to no end to know that Mistress has complete control over my orgasms. It is a treat that I have to earn. I have no idea when that time will come. All I can be assured of is if I Don’t do as she expects, I WON’T be having an orgasm. It could be tonight, but I doubt it. It could even be in a year…more than likely somewhere in between. I am happy, I feel loved, I feel needed, and I feel sexy. What else can I ask for in life?